It makes me sad to see my girl roll on down the road with her truck and trailer leaving Iowa. Inside her boyfriend sits beside her in the passenger seat. The boyfriend that she is moving near and planning a future with. She doesn't have a plan or know the plan, God only knows. She is ready to take her next step in life into the big unknown. She is such an amazing young lady with so much potential. She has always been so gifted and talented, with so much to give in this world. She has the whole world before her, with big choices along the way. In the back seat lays a dog with a watermelon sized belly just waiting to have pups. I hope she makes it to her destination before they come. I am guessing in the next couple days there will be pups. The trailer she pulls has everything she needs packed into the living quarters, boxes with clothes, kitchen items, business inventory, and supplies. The back is empty, no horses for now, at least not until she gets settled. The truck she drives is not the most reliable, we pray that it makes it all the way. We did not want to risk her trailer loaded with 3 horses in this cold weather with a risk for a break down. We have said goodbye so many times over the past 3 years. Leaving for Ames to go to ISU, leaving for Oklahoma each semester. This move feels different and it doesn't feel good. 2 months ago she talked about moving back to Iowa. She was excited to come back to the little white house. She was looking forward to her own place and decorating it the way she likes. When she graduated and traveled back to Iowa, I had a an instant feeling, this was not going to be for long and she would most likely head south again. I was just really surprised how quickly. After 20 days in Iowa, she is on the road to Texas. Noah flew in to Des Moines, she picked him up at the airport, we had lunch at the Iowa Machine Shed restaurant. It was awkward and quiet. There was little to no conversation among the boys or Mark and Noah. Jayden and I did most of the talking and trying to get conversations going. Final hugs were given and we all sat and watched her truck and trailer head south. So many emotions, so confusing, so sad. I wish we were happy and felt reassured that everything was going to be ok, but we really didn't know. Pray, that is what I do so often for Jayden, pray and pray.
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