My back locked up on me...
I googled what I could about my back and without any recollection of an injury or trauma, the only other obvious cause was stress. What!? You could say I have stress going on in my life and it seems these last few days it has just piled on!
Graduation is nearing and with it, Grandma sends a daily text or two or three and a phone call with something new to think about with graduation. It is on my mind daily as it draws near. I didnt want to want put all my time and focus on it for weeks and weeks, and not worry over it until the week before. That isn't happening.
Jayden has been searching for a horse and is on mission to drop everything and go. On 3 other occasions, she was ready to go look and each time the horse sold before she could go see it. Mark was ready to send her on an airplane to go see one. I kind of thought he lost his mind. Jayden wants to go now, like take off literally tomorrow. Mark originally said he could go and now says she should just go on her own. I think that is a terrible idea. I don't want a cute blonde 18 year old traveling 10+ hours one way to Oklahoma, stopping at truck stops, and staying in a hotel alone. Are they crazy!?? Apparently. Yes, that is stressful. She has called and talk to everyone she can think of to go and can't come up with anyone that can. Mark is ready to let her go.
This Wednesday we are having Jake's 180 youth group out to the farm. We have a lot of preparing, cleaning, and getting food ready. I don't know if parents will be coming and staying and how many will be coming. There are 8 boys and if every parent stays... I want it to be fun and want it to be a great time for Jake. It means a lot to him. My focus is on that first.
Carina wants Mark and I to be sponsors for Levi's baptism on Father's day. We already made plans to go to Minnesota to my cousin Noah's graduation. Mark has never been to their home and I missed Austin's graduation. We planned to get away for a couple days and Noah's graduation party is Saturday night before father's day. Carina was not worried if that weekend didn't work, however my mom has the whole day planned and insisted we do it. After several days of fretting, as always I get stuck in the middle and try to make all happy. We changed our plans around and will go to Minnesota early and be back for the baptism.
This week we have homeschool field trips that I committed too and wish now I had not said yes because we are just to busy. I can't back out because they have to have a certain number in order to plan the events. Tuesday the kids go to Sunstream for a day of zipline and archery and Thursday a field trip to the Fort in Fort Dodge.
I do think the stress is just piling on and it caught up with me.
And then it happened... Monday I woke with a sore lower back. I rarely have low back pain unless I lifted something too heavy or strained it. I did not recall any of that. In the evening I went with Jayden to Krav class. We went back and forth in the car ride ,our conversation about going to OK, looking at horses, college and horses, what we would do with another horse, Ace, etc. It was getting me a bit worked up. On to Krav class, I stretched a lot in hopes that I just needed to loosen some muscles and my back would feel better. Every stretch hurt and once class started I had to sit out after a few techniques. I knew I was really going to hurt myself if I didn't quit. Jayden had her testing night and kicked, punched, and hit the bags. She did great and was hot, red faced and tired by the end. As we walked down the stairs, I could feel my back lock up. I had trouble walking to the car and even more getting in. It hurt to move and it would just grab in pain when I did. Jayden got me laughing and I hurt even more. We are quite the pair when we get each other laughing. She got me an ice bag to sit on my back and she drove me home. At home, I walked into the house, about every third step my back would lock and about drop me to my knees. I knew I couldn't move and needed to be still so I got in bed. I needed to change my clothes, shower, and brush my teeth. Those things all had to wait until morning. The last time this happened to me was 3 nights before Mark and I got married. It makes sense, stress. I had so much stress piled on me all at once today, it doesn't surprise me!
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