3/12/17 Years ago in a bible study, one of my friends
made the comment that she was being her husband’s holy spirit. I didn’t really
understand at the time what she mean’t. Today I realized that often times that
is me, I am trying to be my husband’s holy spirit. Once in awhile I hear a
sermon and I am just moved in a way that makes me want to go home and plan how
I am going to give or serve, help, or travel, attend a conference, or make major life
changes, or share the gospel, invite families over. I am excited and ready,
then I talk with Mark and his thoughts are very different from mine. He isn’t
moved in the same way that I am.I don’t always
understand why he doesn’t feel the same
way that I do. I then find myself nudging him and trying to get him to do this
or that and it really only causes him to get annoyed. I am trying to by the
holy spirit working on his heart, but it is impossible. I cannot do the job of
the holy spirit, I am not supposed to. It is up to God, it is his plan, he is
the one that has to lead Mark in his path and not me. I find it so very hard
because I want him to do things that only God can lead his heart to do. I just
need to sit back and let my prayers and the holy spirit work on him. That is a
hard thing to do. Mark may have good reason and good intentions. I am to submit to my husband and he is the decision maker. Sometimes I have a hard time with that too. It really is in God's hands. I too have to realize that my plans are not always what God has in mind. I need to let God lead and trust him. Here is a small example, today in church we watched a video
about a father and son weekend of learning about God and hunting. The weekend
consists of shooting guns, eating wild game, and learning about relationship
with Christ. On top of that, Stonebridge church is sponsoring one full day just
for Dads and sons in our Boone church. How cool is that! I was in awe and so excited,
if I was a Dad, I would totally go! It
would be at Hidden Acres, just up the road, and they wouldn’t even have to
spend the night and go for the whole retreat, but could get in on a full day
with our church. I was so ready to sign them up. Jake got a gun 2 Christmas’s ago and has only
gotten to shoot it a couple times. He would like to shoot it more and go
hunting, but it isn’t the kind of thing you just go out and do by yourself at
the age of 13, nor do I want him to . This seemed like such a cool opportunity and I could not think of any reason he wouldn't agree. After church I asked Mark what he thought
about it and gave him my thoughts and encouraged him. I could tell by his
expression, it was not going to happen. He was all but thrilled. I will wait
and I will pray.
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