Jan 17 Today would be my last day before surgery and the didn’t have school. I wanted to make the most of it, have a family day, and not worry about tomorrow. We drove to Des Moines to the Bass Pro shop. We did some shooting at the shooting range, went bowling and had lunch. It was a great time had by all. Jake was the most fun to watch at bowling. He would take the ball run with it and just throw it out there and most of the time he hit all but one or two pins. He ended up with the high score of the game. It was a nice distraction and relaxing time. I had one doctor appointment before heading home. Later, our Stratford Pastor and wife came to pray with me for tomorrow. I also had talks and prayers with the kids. I gave them each a stuffed animal to hug while mommy could’nt give hugs.
I didn’t sleep well last night and I knew tonight would be worse. I am keeping my mind busy and not trying to worry and think too much about the details. I know what I am about to do is going to affect the rest of my life. I know it is going to allow me the chance to live a life without the worries of breast and ovarian cancer. I want to be here for my kids and grandkids.
I am nervous and a little anxious, and want it to be done and over. I wish I could fast forward 2 weeks. I am expecting great pain and discomfort. I am not looking forward to it.
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